Where Did The Time Go?

Mike: Morning.
Me: Morning to you too.
Mike: Are you ready for our 2 week anniversary?
Me: I suppose.
Mike: That doesn't sound so enthusiastic to me.
Me: Trust me I am I just woke up. What time is it?
Mike: 11. I dropped Danielle off at daycare for you.
Me: You truly are amazing.
Mike: I do my best.
He kissed me.
Me: Why are you so amazing?
Mike: You're more amazing.
I shrugged my shoulders and pulled down the adult medium Revis Island shirt Mike got me. I sat up and Mike brought out a breakfast tray with a small vase of pink lillies my favorite. Then I gasped at how amazing he is. My all time favorite breakfast meal in the whole world.

Me: You did not go to IHOP and get the kids funny face.
Mike: But I did. I got IHOP for everyone Danielle loved it.
Me: You officially are the most amazing person that ever existed.
He kissed me.
Mike: Eat I even got you chocolate milk.
I ate my funny face and downed my chocolate milk. Mike cleared away the dishes and washed them! xD. I took a shower and got changed. I put on my medium elastic Michael Kors gold tiered tank dress with a pair of matching gold sandals. I let my hair in it's natural waves and put on my charm bracelet with the charm Mike got me. I took my black Juicy Couture bag and placed Mike's anniversary present in it.

I felt his silver rolex bouncing in the box as I walked. He always complains he needs a watch for special occasions so I got him one :). It has S.D + M.M in the center of the watch. :). I went downstairs as Mike looked adorable in his navy blue polo, basketball length khaki shorts, and his fancy Nike's. I smiled at him. He grabbed my hand and he led me to the car. I turned on the radio and put on On The Floor. After me singing along with the radio and Mike laughing at how adorably tone-deaf he is xD. He got an unsettling look on his face. His shoulders tensed.
Mike: You know how we met at the clinic?
Me: Yeah...
Mike: Why were you there? I mean like at bulimic's anonymous because I was picking Jessica up from it. Jessica has only been doing it for 2 months and Lily caught her in the act. It was kinda my descion to sign her up. But if I never picked up Jessica I would have never met you. Just tell me why you were there.
I cleared my throat.
Me: I've been battling bulimia for about 4 years now. I was never fat. I was always athletic gymnastics, swimming, cheerleading, softball, dancing, basketball, and so much more. And my mom made me model normal clothes, bikinis, and lingerie. So at a Victoria's Secret catalog shoot. And I was getting a snack and I was in just a bra and a lace thong. The models were always jealous of me because I had bigger boobs than them and I was younger and mine are real. And they started poking me like I was the Pillsbury Dough Boy. They called me fat and I weighed 110 pounds. I never considered myself fat. In the gang I was always the smallest one. 5 ft 5 and 110 pounds everyone was so jealous of me that I never gained weight because I ate so much crap. But after that happened to me I went home and ate everything in sight for comfort. Then I went to the bathroom to redo my hair. Then I ripped off all of my clothes that I was only in my underwear and bra. I had this huge makeover in the summer of 8th grade. My mom was tired of my dark highlights and all of my non girly girl stuff. Me and my best friend, Evie, we had matching nose piercings in 7th grade but mine closed up in 8th grade. After my makeover when ever I looked in the mirror I saw a tallish, natural blonde, deep meaningful blue eyes, a D chest that you never have to wear a pushup bra and you have to get custom made bras because you can never fit into normal ones, and a smoking hot body. But when I looked in the mirror I saw an obese blonde girl. I thought do I always look this way? I tried to pinch the fat that was hanging off my thong but I pinched air. Then I looked for any stretchmarks. I took deep breaths trying to tell myself I am okay. But the problem was I wasn't. I eyed the extra toothbrush on the counter then I couldn't resist myself because I got this bubbling feeling in my stomach that urged me to do it. Then I stuck the toothbrush side with the bristles going right down my throat. After that I couldn't control it. It was a routine. Wakeup, puke, brush teeth, shower, get changed, go to cheerleading, go straight to class, run 3 miles instead of lunch, makeout with any guy, go home, binge, purge, brush teeth, homework, cheerleading, dance, gymnastics, pretend to eat dinner, puke, go to bed. And do the same the next day. The lowest I've weighed was about 50 pounds. That's went I was wilting away you saw every bone in my chest, my legs were as thin as twigs, and my hair lost it's volume. It was 2 months after Danielle was born after she was born I went up a cup size. But at that time I was flat chested. I was in Boca at the time. I was at cheerleading practice and it was about 90 degrees outside. I was on top of the pyramid and I felt lightheaded but kept my smile. Then I fell of the pyramid from the dizziness. I woke up and everyone was hovering over me. My head throbbed as I saw a swarm of ponytails in my face. They asked me when was the last time I ate and I lied saying at lunch. They helped me up then I fell back down. They helped me but when I tried to get back up I hit my head again. I woke up attatched to tubes and I had an IV in my arm. My grandparents were crying just saying she's gone. The doctor came in and never diagnosed me as bulimic. They just told me to eat or I will be dead that week. I ate and weighed up to 97 pounds. Then started my diet again. I told you I moved back to Tulsa with Danielle you know that whole story with Soda and Bob. And after my mom died I did a bit of an OD on Ecstasy. But they still didn't diagnose me. I always lied to people saying that I didn't do it anymore. But I always have. I only stopped when I got pregnant then started again. I landed in the hospital a couple of weeks ago I told you that. And they told me I'm not only killing myself but my unborn children. That made me want to get help. So I did. No one's perfect I have so many flaws. But I guess when you're in love the person you're in love with has no flaws. They diagnosed me as bulimic for the first time. I try to keep it together for Danielle. To make myself look like a model parent. When Danielle's a teenager I don't know what will happen if she gets pregnant or is bulimic. Before I got pregnant again I was a complete mess. I told you how I dated Sam. And I was stressed beyond belief. I drank half a bottle of Whiskey, Rum, Vodka, or Tequila. I couldn't survive without taking at least one Ecstasy. And whenever I saw Danielle I tried to be sober. But I can't keep it together I'm falling apart. The only things that make me stay sane are you and Danielle. I'm not perfect fuck it I don't think anyone is. I might seem perfect to you but I'm not.
Mike: Hey you are perfect no matter what you're flaws are.
Me: Really?
Mike: Really. I love you Sandy.
Me: I love you too.
He pulled up to the mall parking lot.
Me: No way!
Mike: Yes way.
I squealed in delight as he helped me out of the car. We held hands walking into Lord and Taylor. The smell of Coach Poppy reminded me of all the free stuff I recieved and all of the expensive stuff. I inhaled it again. Amazing.
Mike: Anything you want my treat.
I squealed. We walked around the store.
Me: I don't know if you want to come but I have a doctors appointment later this week and I'm finding out the babies sex's.
Mike: I will come.
Me: And on Sunday a lot of couples are coming to the house. I'm interviewing them to see if they're fit to take care of the twins. And I get to see them occasionally.
Mike kissed me. I saw nothing in particular. None of the Chanel mini dresses in my old size 0 matched up to Mike. We walked over to Victoria's Secret. I got more bras.
Mike: I can't believe you were a model here. Was Soda mad?
Me: He didn't care.
Mike: I'm dating a model.
Me: You like it?
Mike: I'm in love with a model.
He kissed me in front of everyone. I looked for more bras. Mike came over to me with some of his favorite selections. He held up a thong that looked like a rubber glove. I shook my head. He held up more g-strings and I simply replied you wish. Mike wondered off as I got more underwear. I looked for him but he went to Tiffany. I didn't chase after him I just purchased my stuff. Mike was still there so I got Gators sweatpants and all of the matching things in a large. Mike came back and I was beyond curious. But I kept it to myself. We walked back to the car. We just sang along to my Glee Soundtrack. He pulled up to the beach.
Me: No way really?
Mike: I'm full of surprizes aren't I?
I smiled then Mike opened the trunk and got out 2 beach bags and a picnic basket.  We walked up to the beach.
Me: How are we supposes to have fun at the beach with no bathing suits?
Mike: I bought you that navy blue and gold Michael Kors sexy one piece that you always wanted in the catalog. I asked Lexie what size and I got you a size 6.
Me: My pregnant size right now.
Mike: You got it.
I grabbed my bathing suit and got changed into it. Mike got changed into a pair of old basketball shorts and no shirt xD. We held hands and walked onto the warm sand. He put his hand on my stomach.
Mike: You're getting bigger.
Me: Shut up I know.
Mike: When are you do?
Me: Early November they think November 9th at the earliest and November 13th at the latest. But they don't know because they might run out of room and I will have to go into early labor.
Mike: I'm by your side no matter what.
Me: I love you.
Mike: I love you too.
He laid down a blue beach towel. Then had my white iPod speakers and put in my iPod touch my 18th birthday present. He put on the Glee version of Bruno Mars' Marry You. I smiled and pulled down my Prada aviators. We cuddled on the blanket and I tried to teach him a simple dance to Glee Forget You. Mike gave up after I started trying to point his toes. Mike was making sure I wasn't hurting the babies by dancing. And I told him I'm fine because even celebrities pre-natal pole dance and then he asked me if I could do it for him ;). I tried to teach Mike how to dougie but he gave up on that too. Then he watched me dougie and told me I was sexy at it. Mike buried my swollen feet then gave me a massage. Mike ate a hamburger and I had a veggie burger. We both had a HUGE thing of fries. Mike got me an extra large vanilla milkshake and he had a chocolate one. We started building sandcastles and mine beats his.

Mike's sandcastle

My sandcastle.
We made out some more until people started yelling at us. Whops.
Mike: I know this is sudden but would you want to move in my house or yours or we find our own place. You, me, and Danielle.
Me: Yes absolutely. Let's find our own place.
Mike: Sandy.
Me: Mike.
It was perfect the sun was setting and it was just perfect. I got his present out.
Me: Here happy anniverary baby.
Mike: It's perfect.
He smiled and kissed me. I stood up and brushed sand off my ass. Mike wrapped his arms around me.
Me: We should get going I don't want to miss Glee.
Mike: Okay.
We went back to the house and watched Glee in our pajamas. Mike held me as I cried when Kurt got nominated prom queen. He laughed when I was yelling at the TV for Brittany not saying yes to Artie. Mike gave me diamond earrings from Tiffany. xD. I wasn't hoping for a ring or anything it's too soon. But I wouldn't care if he did because he's the most amazing person in the world. We know everything about eachother and each day is like the first. Exact quote Michael Tyler Montgomery. xD. We cuddled and fell asleep in eachother's arms as Danielle and the other uhm didn't hear what was going on up here.
;) Sandy

I love you Mike <333

Mother's Day

Evie: What's wrong Soda didn't go to your cheerleading practice?
Me: Leave me alone.
Evie: I'm your best bitch you can tell me anything.
Me: This I can't.
Evie: Come on.
I shrugged my shoulders and walked away. I walked to cheerleading practice. The fast beat of Boom Boom Pow came on. I squatted in my position feeling immediate nausea. Everyone did their roundoffs. Then I strattle jumped up and went running into a front handspring flip. I felt like I was about to puke any minute. I thought my face was green. My mind felt like it was on an endless roller coaster. They picked me up and I flipped off they caught me then they put me on the top. We smiled big and proud of our pyramid. I felt like shit. My knees were quivering about to collapse any minute. Then we broke apart and someone caught me. I sprinted to the bathroom to puke. I ran and got my white bag from my duffle bag. I sprinted into the bathroom making sure no one will see me. I tore open the wrapper. And got the 3 pregnancy tests out of the box. I peed on the first one hoping with all of my heart it will be negative. I bought 6 boxes with 1 tests in each. I peed on the first one. I waited and bounced all around the bathroom. My short skirt twirling on my hips. Then it came. I grabbed 6 different types of pregnancy tests so this one was the worst. -.- It had a smiley face. A simple smiley face. I looked on the box. It said smiley face= pregnant. My face turned bright red. I felt dizzy. I tore open another box. I waited another 3 minutes staring at my flushed reflection. The test came. Pregnant. I couldn't breath. I opened another box barely having enough pee left. I waited and waited. Then 2 pink lines. I laid them all on the sink counter. I lifted up my shirt. I just thought I was getting fat. I gave up eating to maintain my size 0 body. I looked up at my usual body. My red and black lace bra was too big from giving up eating. Where you can once see my ribs was .... average looking. I face was flushed. I felt like I was about to faint. I started drinking my water bottle again hoping to generate enough pee for another pregnancy test. The last time I had sex was 2 months ago. And that was a new record for me the longest I've gone without sex was a week. The last person I had sex with was Bob then before that Soda. The tears started coming again. The door opened my heart did a front/ backhandspring flip which I was supposed to do right now. She came in and I sighed in relief. Her brown hair was in a messy ponytail. She fiddled with her nose piercing. We got matching ones in 7th grade but mine closed up in 9th grade. Her face went pale. She crossed her arms over her Ramones tee-shirt I got her in 6th grade that fit her but was tight across her chest. She fixed the strap on her black leather work boots. Then twirled a piece of her new blue highlights.
Evie: What's going on?
Me: Nothing.
I hid the boxes of the pregnancy tests behind my back. I forgot about the 3 positive pregnancy tests on the sink counter.
Evie: Is there something you want to tell me? Maybe something that you were uncomfortable about and didn't tell me this morning?
I burst into tears once again.
Me: They aren't mine.
Evie: No one would leave 3 different types of positive pregnancy tests in a public bathroom.
Me: I'm scared.
Evie: Aww Sandy.
Me: I just found out today. I recognized the symptoms of weight gain. So I gave up eating to maintain my body. But I can't believe I ignored it because I'm that much of a baby.
Evie: Hey everything's going to be okay.
Me: That's the problem it's not.
Evie: Hey come here.
She wrapped her skinny arms around me. I saw her new tattoo on her collarbone of 3 stars. Stars are our thing I got them on my foot then I got a rose on my ankle while I was at it. Her black nail polished hands were around me.
Me: I can't believe it.
Evie: Shhh...
The door opened again it was Blair, Kitty, and Jelly. They saw my tear streaked face.
Blair: Is there something going on here?
Evie let go of me and I wiped my face with the back of my hand. I put on such a fake smile that I deserved an Oscar for. Kitty's eyes darted from the positive pregnancy tests to me. Jelly had a smirk on her face.
Jelly: Who's are those?
Evie: They're mine.
Kitty: Steve knocked you up?
Evie: You got that right.
Blair: Really?
Evie: Are you blind don't you see my positive pregnancy tests?
Blair: Uhm yeah.
Kitty sighed in relief. And they fixed their hair and went back to class.
Me: Thanks you really saved my life. If Kitty found out she would tell Soda.
Evie: But you gotta tell him eventually he is the baby daddy.
Me: Uhm yeah that's what I'm worried about...
Evie: Huh?
Me: Well I got the symptoms 2 months ago. When I slept with Soda. I tried to ignore it so I went to a party and I slept with.... with with Bob Sheldon. And I don't know who's the father.
Evie: Oh Sandy. You gotta tell him no matter what he will stay by your side.
Me: I think I will hold off for a little bit.
Evie: Whatever you want to do. I gotta head back to class I already have a F in Syme's class and that's me actually showing up.
She headed towards the door.
Me: Evie.
Evie: Yeah?
Me: Thanks you truely are my best bitch.
She laughed and stuffed her hands in her pockets and headed back to class.
Some people become mothers when their baby is laid on their chest. But I became a mother the moment I found out I was pregnant. Without Evie's help I would be in shock till this day. Evie thanks for helping me through my 1st pregnancy and you can help me with this one :) Some people don't care if you're a mother already or if you're excepting and they aren't the one. If they accept you then you absolutely know they're the right one. And people despise mother's day. But I love it. Not the cards from your two year old that has 2 pounds of chunky glitter from the glue on it and not even in English. Not the cards, the roses, or the kisses from the perfect guy who isn't even the baby daddy. Not the chocolates from your kid and your perfect boyfriend. Not the peaceful day at the park with your daughter and your amazing boyfriend. But being a mother in general. Some babies are planned, unplanned, months early, or years late. But they are all human and deserved to be loved. You really have that deep mother and child connection when the doctor lays your baby on your chest. Danielle Grace Davis you make me crazy with your princess obsession but I absolutely love you baby. You're the one who made me grow up. I love you and I could celebrate another holiday because of you. I love you.
<33 Sandy

You Never Go Through Anything Alone When You're With The Right One

I balanced Danielle on my hip as she played with my hair. My cellphone blasted "Eternal Flame" And I immdiately knew it was Mike.
Me: Hey.
Mike: Hey what are you doing today?
Me: I have a doctor's appointment.
He noticed the weakness in my voice.
Me: And I have to go alone. Because uhm Soda doesn't want anything to do with it. And right now I'm just scared.
Tears streamed down my face. When you're pregnant you know you have to wear waterproof mascara. Or else you're just screwed.
Mike: Hey it's okay. I could go with you. It will be our date today.
Me: I don't know. You might feel uncomfortable.
Mike: Listen Sandy. I don't care as long as I'm with you it's all that matters.
Me: Really?
Mike: Really. So I will come over.
Me: Thanks.
I wiped the tears off my face. I got showered and changed. Danielle was running around the house naked. I picked her up. She ran out of the freaking bathtub when I wanted to dry her off. I put her in a light blue sundress and put her hair in pigtails. I kissed her to death.
Me: Danielle do you like Mike?
Danielle: Daddy?
I nearly passed out. She never called Matt, Sam, or Chris "Daddy" Well Mike loves Danielle like she's his own daughter. I hugged Danielle and set her down. I laid down on the couch with a bag of carmel popcorn laying on my chest. Hey I get cravings that are salty and sweet. I watched Jersey Shore reruns because the new season isn't coming soon enough. :(. The doorbell rang. I fixed my red halter top. And I fixed my leggings. I fixed my black strappy Christain Louboutin heels. My feet are soo freaking swollen it takes me legit 20 minutes to put on heels. And they kill! Mike came to the door in a Gator tee-shirt, ripped jeans, and orange and green Nikes.
Me: My family already likes you.
Mike: Why you say that?
Me: You're a Gators fan.
Mike: You're one too?
Me: Die hard college football Gator fan.
He kissed me. I felt his hand moving near my ass.
Me: Hey you can't touch my fat ass.
Mike: It's not fat it's sexy.
I kissed him. And put his hand on my back. I had to restrain myself and my fucking horny hormones from ripping off his adorable Gators shirt. I held his hand and lead him to the living room.
Mike: What time is your doctor's appointment?
Me: Three.
Mike: So that gives us time...
Me: For what?
Mike: Anything.
I gave him a wink.
Me: Hmmm I will do anything you want to.
Mike: Really?
Me: Yeah.
I turned on Teen Mom 2.
Mike: That's not exactally what I want...
I gave him a wink. We kissed. I turned back to the TV to make him want me more.
Mike: Hey.
Me: This is a pretty good show...
He grabbed my face and kissed me. We kissed and kissed. We got up still kissing and lead ourselves into my room. I slammed the door with my foot. We made out on my bed.
Mike: Hey babe I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable or pressured to do it. I really like you and with your situation I don't want you to do anything you don't want to.
I sat up and put my hair into a ponytail.
Me: It's not like I don't want to do it... I mean trust me I've gone almost I think 3 months without sex. And I want it. But I feel like every guy just has sex with me and runs off. Like I want a real relationship where I'm not pregnant with someone else's kid. Where we love eachother and have sex. I want that fairy tale relationship.
Mike held my face.
Mike: Trust me. When I'm with you I feel like it's unreal you're drop dead gorgeous. Pregnant or not. I love how much we have in common. I love it when we are in the car and you sing along with the radio. And you have such a good voice. I love how every step you take you're rehearsing a dance move. I love how your daughter is your first priority. I love your blue eyes. They're deep and describe your whole personality. I love your blonde hair. I love every thing about you Sandy. I don't know what you feel. But I feel like I'm living that "fairy tale" relationship when I'm with you.
He leaned in close and wiped a stray piece of hair away from my face. I leaned in and kissed him. We kissed again then went back to the living room. We cuddled on the couch. Until Danielle started hollering. I picked her up and she watched TV with us. The babysitter came because I had to leave for my appointment. We drove in my car. Well actually Mike drove. I sang ET along with the radio. We got out of the car. We sat down on the ugly ass chairs that people probably had sex on. -.- Mike held my hand as I nervousily twitched my foot. My teeth chattered in fear. I don't know why I was so scared but I just was. Next to me was a pregnant girl around her early 30's kissed her husband. When I imagined being at the OB GYN I imagined myself married. Actually happy to be pregnant. At my first OB GYN appointment when I was pregnant with Danielle, I was so scared I made Evie come. And she said she was the baby daddy and she was swivelling around on the chair and put doctor gloves on to relieve the tension. They called me in I winced. Mike held my hand and came in with me. They lead us into a room that instantally gave me chills running up and down my spine. I laid down and pulled up my light blue tank top to reveal my baby bump. I smoothed out my white pencil skirt. Mike held my hand. The doctor came in.
Dr. Forbes: Hey Sandy. We are just going to check you out.
Me: Okay.
She poured that goo shit on my stomach. I instantly got goosebumps from how freaking cold it was. Mike gave me a smile simply assuring me that everything will be okay. She found one heartbeat then the other one.
Dr. Forbes: Everything looks okay from the point of view that you were underweight. But most twins are pre-mature. And you will be 3 months pregnant in a couple of weeks. To be exact 2 weeks. They are doing fine. They are almost fully developed organ wise. You could have them at 7 months but I don't think any earlier. But they are healthy good luck Sandy.
Me: Thanks.
I pulled my shirt down to not feel like a beached whale. We left the OB GYN place. Mike was completly silent in the car. I lowered down Rolling In The Deep. Something was defintally wrong. Mike kept his eyes on the road.
Me: What's wrong?
Mike: Are you serious Sandy? Before at your house I ammiditted that I love you. After a week. I'm completly in love with you Sandy. And you didn't say anything back.
Me: But I do Mike I do.
Mike: Whatever.
Tears filled the corners of my eyes. I DO LOVE HIM! But how do I explain it? I texted Kitty to come to Karoke Night tonight with Two-Bit, Blair and Dally. And I invited Elena to get to know her better. Do I sound weird today? I think soooo.... xD. I want to prove I love him back. He told me he loves my voice when I think I have a shitty one. But I'm judgemental to myself. On one of our dates we danced to Eternal Flame by The Bangles. Hmmmm that's it. So once Mike parked the car he stayed at the house he played with Danielle. I got changed into something sexy, eyepopping. = something that hides my baby bump. I settled on a flowy red halter top, leggings, and black Jimmy Choos. I let my hair in it's natural waves. I applied lip gloss and gold hoops and smiled at my reflection.
Me: Come on we are going to Karoke Night.
Mike: Whatever.
GRRR!!!! We drove to the restaurant that was hosting it. Turns out Mike works there and it was his shift. I found Kitty kissing Two-Bit, Blair and Dally hugging, and Elena went alone. I sat next to Elena at the bar.
Me: Seltzer with lemon please.
I felt so stupid for dragging everyone here.
Elena: You okay?
Me: Not really...
After the performance was over I was so fed up. I went up on stage. Elena stared at me with her mouth wide open.
Elena: What are you doing?!?
Me: Hey everyone. I've been through so much lately. Words can't describe my feelings for Michael Tyler Montgomery. We've only known each other for one week. But Mike I love you. So... here I am feeling a little loopy not knowing what to do.
I saw a guy come towards Elena. Oh yeah that's Colby. They're just friends but stilll they look cute together. I whispered to the band guy.
Me: Can you do Eternal Flame?
They nodded and I took a deep breath. I started singing. Elena stood there smiling at me. Kitty smiled in shock. Blair smiled with Dally's arms around her. Halfway through the song as I was holding my note I saw Mike coming toward me.
Me: Mike I...
He grabbed me and kissed me like never before.
Mike: I love you too.
I felt such relief as I met his lips once again. I can't believe I dragged everyone there for that. Well too bad. I finshed the song as Mike stood on the side of the stage smiling. I got off the stage. Mike's warm hand wrapped around mine.
Mike: Happy one week anniversary.
He pulled out a heart Tiffany charm with our initals engraved in it.
S.D +
M.M= Forever
I kissed him again.
Me: Sorry I don't have a present for you.
Mike: Babe. You had the guts to go up on stage and sing your feelings for me I think that beats this.
He gave me another kiss. I went over to Kitty, Elena, and Blair.
Me: Sorry for dragging you here.
Kitty: Eh you drag me to everything these days.
I smiled.
Elena: Are you kidding you have such a good voice!
Me: Thanks Elena you're really nice.
She smiled and started talking to Colby.
Blair: You were good Sandy.
Then she returned to kissing Dally. Mike wrapped his arms around me. We danced and danced.
Mike: I love you.
Me: I love you too.
And for once I actually meant it. I haven't said it since Sam well I have but I didn't mean it. Then we returned to kissing. We went back home and played with Danielle. We made out for an hour or two then I cuddled up to the most amazing man that's ever been in my life. My boyfriend that I love, Michael Tyler Montgomery.
xD Sandy

Me and Mike at the movies seeing Hop.

Everyone Needs A Savior

My stomach growled in frustration. I pulled at my tight pajama shorts. I snuggled up onto Mike's chest. No we did not have sex if that's what you're thinking. My stomach growled again begging for me to pay attention to it. Then the craving kicked in. Fuck.
Me: Mike are you hungry?
Mike: No it's 2 am.
Me: I'm hungry.
Mike: Sandy wait until breakfast.
Me: I can't!
Mike: What do you want?
Me: Chocolate covered potato chips.
Mike: Have it for breakfast.
Me: Mikeee pleaseeeee.
He fixed his sexy messy bed hair and gave me an adorable smile.
Mike: Sandyyyyy. Hey this game is fun.
Me: Fine.
I stormed out of the room. My stomach growled again.
Me: Shut up!
I picked up my phone off the kitchen counter. I scrolled through my contacts. And then clicked send. Amazingly she answered on the 2nd ring.
Kitty: Sandy what the fuck could you possibly want at 2:15 a.m?!?!
Me: Kitty do you want to get me chocolate covered potato chips?
Kitty: Not exactally.
Me: Please Kitty I'm dying here. I'm proud that I'm even eating.
Kitty: What will you do for me if I run and go get you your food?
Me: I will be your best friend.
Kitty: You're already one of mine try again.
Me: Name anything I'm dying here.
Kitty: You won't drag me to one of those Bulimics Anonymous meetings ever again.
Me: Deal. Kitty come soon.
I thought about Kitty's deal. She was about to call me a bitch when I wanted her to go to all of the meetings with me. But she caught herself because if she did she would put the fuze on the Hormonal Bitch bomb. Because my hormones are so out of control! Last time Kitty called me a bitch I was cursing her out then I started crying. -.- The last time she talked to me about the uhm problem we both have was when she kidnapped me. Now she won't say a word about it. I understand it's a personal subject but you have to talk to people about it. Or you will end up like me last week. -.- Everyone needs someone by their side when their battling something as deathly as an eating disorder. Mike has actually been really supportive because he understands because of his little sister, Jessica. I only dragged her to the meeting a couple of days ago is because bottom line is I'm scared. I hate dealing with this alone. I felt like I was alone. No one understands. I also did it because I love Kitty deeply and I understand what she is going through because I'm going through it too. I yawned and jumped off the bar stool. I looked around the fridge for food before I legit died of hunger. Hair fell into my face as I looked around. It smelled like vomit. Well I did wake up 6 times to puke. I didn't have morning sickness more like night sickness. I found nothing appetizing to my craving. I started stomping my foot in frustration. Kitty came to the door. She held what I was waiting for. I eagerly grabbed it and dove right in. Kitty looked so tired. Sorry Kitty xD.
Kitty: You're a bitch for making me go on an effin food run.
Me: Sorry.
Potato chips fell out of my mouth when I talked with my mouth full. Total turn on. I swallowed my food. I cleared my throat.
Me: I'm sorry for making you go to the retarted meeting. Kitty you're one of the most bravest, most prettiest, most smartest, and don't forget nicest girls I've ever met. I know you hate me for making you go to it. So be preapared to hear one of the rarest times you will hear Sandy...
Kitty: Samantha!
She burst out laughing. And then consoled herself.
Me: Samantha... Sincerly appoligize. Kitty I love you sooo much you're like my sister. So I'm sorry for that. And you don't have to go to anymore meetings. And I think you're beyond decent you're an amazing person. And those are a couple of reasons why I love KitKat Sarah Curtis.
Kitty smiled. She didn't say a word. She reached in for a giant bear hug. She backed away quickly.
Me: Am I a bad hugger or something?
Kitty: One of your babies just kicked me.
Me: They recognize "Aunt Kitty".
Kitty: They better. And Sandy I know I call you a bitch sometimes and I may act like a complete bitch. But I do it with love. And Sandy you're making me feel amazing actually. But you're the one who has lower self-esteem than me!
I blushed knowing it was true.
Kitty: Well Sandy darling as much as I loved our girl convo and the food run. I'm tired and Two-Bit probably didn't even realize I'm gone yet. And I'm tired. So night.
I hugged her and threw away my empty bag of chocolate covered potato chips. I crawled back into bed. Mike turned onto his side and hugged me.
Me: Do you think I'm pretty?
Mike: You're one of the prettiest girls I've ever seen in my whole life.
Me: Not the prettiest?
I batted my eyelashes.
Mike: The prettiest.
He kissed me like he never had before. Mike smiled.
Mike: You're breath tastes like chocolate covered potato chips.
Me: Not as good as I excpected.
He laughed and put his arms around me then we eventually fell asleep.
The light shined in. I could hear Hannah and Lexie arguing from downstairs. I groaned. It was 10 am. I heard Danielle arguing how Abby Cadabby is better than Elmo to Lexie. And Adam blasting ESPN. Lovely house eh? I'm Canadian today. xD. Mike was watching Sports Center in my room at the lowest volume careful not to wake me up. The sweetest. I opened my eyes and cuddled on his chest. He wrapped his arm around me. We've only known each other for 3 days but it feels so much longer. That's what happens when you're falling for someone hard core.
Mike: Hey sleepy head.
Me: Hey.
He leaned in for a kiss. A few inches away from each other. I could smell his cologne. Then...
Me: SHIT!
I ran out of my bed covering my mouth careful not to puke anywhere. I ran to the bathroom. I puked my guts out. I heard Mike run over to the bathroom.
Mike: Are you okay?
I started puking more. I moaned. Mike reached into one of the sink drawers and pulled my hair into a ponytail making sure none fell into my way. He stayed right by my side. I finished and wiped my mouth. The room smelled like vomit. Attractive. -.- I started crying.
Mike: What's wrong?
Me: You don't want a pregnant girl! How can you seriously find a fat girl like me attractive?
Mike: Shhh Sandy. I think you're beautiful and I don't care because you're pregnant. You're not fat you're pregnant and you're still hot.
I hugged him as I silently yelled at my pregnant hormones. We went down stairs and ate breakfast. I was showered and dressed and Mike smiled at me as I pranced in.
Me: I gotta go to the meeting.
Mike: Okay I'll wait here. Jessica is already there.
I got my car keys and left. It was pretty damn boring. Why would it be interesting? After it was over I went over to Jessica. Her dirty blonde waves went down to her back. Her twinkling eyes reminded me of Mike. I fixed any wrinkles in my green blouse. And any lint on my black pencil skirt. I fixed my green suede flats and made my approach.
Me: Hi I'm Sandy.
Jessica: I know. Mike talks about you all the time I want to shoot him because of it.
Me: Yeah but he is pretty amazing.
Jessica: Not when you know him like I do.
Me: Yeah but Mike told me about you're mom. And listen I might not understand. But you could come to me with any questions. You know?
Jessica: Uhm thanks that was surprisingly nice from one of Mike's girlfriends.
I stiffened and said a quick goodbye. I threw my keys into the glass bowl in the dining room. I went over to Mike on the couch. We cuddled and then we decided to go on a movie date. We snuck into a movie at the Dingo. I mean really who actually pays these days? We saw Soul Surfer and I was a complete wreck. I don't know if it was my hormones or it was just soo effin sad! I drove him back to his house. We kissed then I drove back to my house. Danielle went to sleep with me. I smiled. I thought about Jessica's and Mike's situation. Their mom walked out on them after their youngest sibling, Lily, was born. Jessica and Lily have no girl to talk to. And Mike is trying to play the dad role because his dad is a workaholic. But I looked on the bright side and thought about my day with Mike then I just thought. Yeah it was a pretty good day.
:) Sandy

Jessica

Feels Great

I pulled my hair into a sloppy ponytail and lazily walked into Danielle's room. She ran out of her Cinderella Carriage bed to greet me. I picked her up and yawned. She pointed at my expanding belly. I sighed. I fixed my Team DJ Pauly D shirt. xD. I fixed my green striped pajama pants and walked into the kitchen. I put Danielle into her booster seat chair thingy. I got out eggs and bacon to start making for everyone. The doorbell rang. I groaned as I shuffled to the door. Mike was standing at the door smiling. His brown hair looking absolutely perfect. He fixed his Nikes.
Me: Hey what are you doing here?
Mike: I wanted to see you. You promised me we would have a date today.
Me: Yeah I know. But I legit just got out of bed a couple of minutes ago.
Mike: You still look hot.
I giggled. He wrapped his muscular arms around my waist. I turned around and stared into his soulful light brown eyes. He leaned in and kissed me. We made out.
Me: Are you hungry?
Mike: Starving.
Me: I was just about to make breakfast.
Mike: I'll wait here.
He sat at the table next to Danielle.
Mike: And is this Danielle?
I cracked an egg into the sizzling pan.
Me: Yes it is. Danielle say hi.
Danielle: Hi.
Man was she quiet.
Mike: She looks just like you. She's beautiful just like you.
Me: Stop I'm fat.
Mike: There's a difference between fat and pregnant.
Me: Whatever.
I finished cooking and set breakfast on the table. I feel like I've known Mike so much longer than just one day. I don't know. We ate our food then Danielle and I took a bath. I got changed as Mike waited in the living room. I pranced out in a black high-waisted skirt, white tanktop, and black and white flipflops. Danielle was taking a nap. I flopped down on the couch.
Me: So what do you want to do today?
Mike: I don't know.
I gave him a flirty wink. I took off my shoes and laid my feet on him.
Mike: Why did you move to Florida before?
Me: Well uhm my parents kicked me out when they found out I was pregnant. I was living with my boyfriend then I found out the baby wasn't his. As soon as I found out I took the first plane to Florida and I lived with grandparents in Boca. A couple of months after the baby was born I was sick and tired of them so I moved to Miami with my friends. But I've always been homesick. So I moved back to Tulsa a couple of months ago.
Mike smiled at me. Boy he is hot. ;). Hannah rubbed her eyes and fixed her boyshorts. She wore green boyshorts and a flimsy camisole. Slut. She ate breakfast and jumped in the shower.
Mike: I want to do anything you want to.
Me: I don't know.
Mike: Well let's go to the park then.
Me: Okay.
I went into Hannah's and Lexie's room as they both did their makeup.
Me: Hey I need one of you to babysit Danielle.
Hannah: I will.
Me: Thanks have so much.
Lexie: Use protection with your gorgeous boyfriend.
Me: I'm already knocked up it's not going to create a 3rd.
Lexie: You don't know.
I threw a pillow at her and left the room.
Mike wrapped his arm around me and we left. We walked to the park. We went by the pond. We held hands. Mike leaned in and kissed me. He put his arms around my neck. He is taller than me. Maybe about 6 ft. Or 6 ft 1. I'm only 5 ft 5. -.- We sat down near the water. He put his arm around me as we sat. I skipped rocks across the water.
Me: A lot of memories here....
Mike tensed.
Mike: Yeah like what?
I laughed in my mind. Cuz I had a couple of hookups here. It was before Soda. But still I can't tell Mike I actually really like him. xD.
Me: I always came here when my parents were fighting. When they were drunk because they abused me. I have scares from them.
He traced his fingers along my scare on my thumb. That I needed stitches for. He held my hand and kissed it.
Mike: How do you feel about them.... Not here anymore?
Me: I uhm words can't really describe it. I'm relieved because they abused all of us. But you feel like something's missing.
Mike: It's okay.
He wiped away the tears silently falling down my cheek.
Me: So which one was your sister?
Mike: The small one with the light brown hair.
I remembered her face. She was actually beautiful dirty blonde hair, hazel eyes, and her face makes a boy want to take a double look at her.
Me: Hmmm what's her name?
Mike: Jessica.
Me: Pretty.
He held my hand tight. I leaned on his chest.
Mike: Want to have a little fun?
Me: No I will not do a strip tease for you.
I gave him a wink.
Mike: Damn. Since I don't get that want to have a competition?
Me: Like what?
Mike: Who can skip a rock the farthest.
Me: Deal I'm a pro.
Mike: Wait let's make this a little interesting. If I win I get a 20 minute strip tease from you. If you win what do you want?
Me: You have to go shopping with me the whole day.
Mike: Do I get to go in the dressing room to take peaks?
Me: Nope.
I kissed him on his nose. Damn he's perfect. Mike took a rock and skipped it halfway across the lake. Damn I better get my maternity lingerie out. I took a rock and skipped it a couple of feet behind his.
Mike: You better pay up.
Me: Nah ugh uh. Not in public you get a private showing of the one and only Sandy.
Mike: Does this mean I get to spend the night?
Me: What do you think?
We both inched closer. I could smell his Hollister Laguna Beach cologne. We leaned in and our lips met. We made out for about 15 minutes.
Me: What do you think the answer is?
Mike: I take that as a yes.
He kissed me and grabbed my hand.
Mike: Come on I don't want to be late for my strip tease.
I got up and we walked back holding hands. My heart fluttered like a butterfly. I'm falling for him. Hard. And it feels great.
<333 Sandy

Me and Mike in front of my house <3

Found The Right One

I marched over to Kitty's apartment. My heels making that irritating click-clack sound. Well the pills did it I weigh 125 pounds and still gaining weight. You can defintely see me baby bump. -.- I opened the door to find Two-Bit laying on the couch in nothing but boxers. His hand down his pants and watching Mickey Mouse.
Me: God Two-Bit want to interest in a pair of I don't know pants?
Two-Bit: God Sandy ever heard of knocking?
Me: Nah overrated.
I click-clacked into Kitty's bedroom. I shook Kitty.
Me: Get up.
Kitty groaned.
Me: I said get the fuck up.
I started pulling her out of bed. She grabbed onto the metal posts.
Me: Kitty please.
She groaned. I laid down next to her. I pushed her out of bed.
Kitty: You got me I'm up.
Me: Come on get changed.
Kitty: Fuck you.
Kitty sleep walked over to her closet and pulled on a pair of shorts.
Kitty: I fuckin hate you.
Me: I really feel the love.
We got into my car and drove to our prison. Kitty fiddled around with the radio. We pulled up to our prison. I climbed out of the car with my back killing me with so much weight I'm carrying. Kitty sleepily climbed out. We walked into the room. A stick thin blonde lady flashed us such a false smile. We sat down on two stools as we looked at all the stick thin people around us.
Kelly: Well let's start with introductions. Your full name, what you will like to be called, a little about yourself.
She pointed a bony manicured finger at Kitty.
Kitty: Well hi I'm KitKat Sarah Curtis.
Everyone: Hiii KitKat.
Kitty glared at everyone.
Kitty: I would like to be called Kitty. Or whatever the fuck you want. I'm 18 years old. I have 3 siblings. Darry he is like twenty something. I really don't know or nor do I care. I have a 19 year old brother Sodapop, and I have a 16 year old brother Ponyboy.
Kelly: So Kitty why are you here?
Kitty: She dragged me here.
Kitty pointed at me. I felt like cracking up.
Me: Hi I'm Samantha Quinn Davis.
Everyone: Hiiiii Samantha.
Kitty cracked up like Samantha was the funniest name she ever heard. I got it legally changed so in your fuckin face Kitty.
Me: I like being called Sandy. I got my name legally changed to that. I'm 19 years old. Uhm yeah I have 5 siblings. Mark is 25, Leah is 21, Lexie is 16, Hannah is 16, and Adam is 16. I also have a daughter, Danielle.
Kelly: Uhm wow. How old were you when you had her?
Me: Uhm I was in my junior year. I was 16.
Kelly: And are you pregnant now?
Me: Yes I'm 3 almost 4 months pregnant with twins.
Kelly: Well congratulations.
I should have said no are you calling me fat bitch? Everyone did their intros.
Kelly: So Sandy why are you here?
Me: I started being bulimic at 15. I was a model I quit as soon as I got pregnant. I did lingerie, bikinis, and normal clothes. I was just pressured to be skinny then became bulimic. I've had a couple of scares before. Like in the hospital. Everyone thought I was going to die.
Kelly: Did you stop being bulimic when you got pregnant?
Me: First or second time?
Kelly: Both.
Me: No.
Kitty didn't say a word. We wrote notes saying that you're beautiful and all of that shit. Kitty drew a drawing of Kelly with a knife in her head. As soon as we were dimissed Kitty sprinted out of the room. I threw her my keys and she bolted to the car. I slumped my tote bag over my shoulder. My dress swayed against my knees. You could barely tell I'm pregnant in this. That lady must have a 6th sense or something. I bumped into a gorgeous guy. Beyond muscular, shaggy hair, and eyes that you fall in love with.
Mike: Shit I'm so sorry.
Me: It's okay really.
He helped me pick up my shit off the floor.
Mike: So what's your name?
Me: Sandy. You?
Mike: Mike. So why are you here?
Me: Bulimics anonymous.
Mike: Oh really? I'm picking my sister up from that right now.
Me: Cool.
Mike: I'm sorry if this sounds too forward or cheesy. But like you're one of the most prettiest girls I've ever laid eyes on. Would you go out with me tonight?
Me: Yeah I'd like that. Here's my number.
Mike: I'll pick you up at 7.
I flashed a smile and skipped away to pissed off Kitty. I dropped Kitty off at her apartment. I went back home spent time with Danielle. Baked cookies. Ate. Slept. I got ready for my date. I searched through my closet and found my light blue strapless dress. It compliments my eyes. :D. I did my make up and flipped my hair. The doorbell rang and I went into Mike's car.
Me: There's something you should know about me.
Mike: What?
Me: I'm pregnant.
Mike: What you mean like you have a boyfriend, fiancee, or husband.
Me: Nope. I mean my married ex knocked me up.
Mike: Listen it's okay. I like you that's all that matters.
We pulled up to the French restaurant. We ordered our food.
Me: So where do you live?
Mike: I just moved from Florida.
Me: Really I lived in Boca. Then Miami.
Mike: Really I lived in Miami too.
I love him. After we ate we kissed. And kissed. And kissed some more. He pulled up to my house.
Mike: I know we only had one date but I really REALLY like you.
Me: Me too.
Mike: Promise me we will do this again tomorrow?
Me: You got my word on that.
I gave him a good night kiss and went into the house.  I squealed in delight. I really like him I feel the thing I had with Soda and Sam. And baby it feels soooo good. I think he is the right one for sure.

He is the 4th one the one with the shaggy hair.

Someone Who Finally Understands

Kitty stared at me. She ran her fingers through her hair. The only sounds there were was the cackling fire.
Me: Kitty come on tell me what's bothering you.
She had her head between her knees. She looked up at me her eyes glowing with tears.
Kitty: I just can't. I can't control it. At first it was just to make myself look better. Now...
Me: You still have an eating disorder?
Kitty: Yes. I weighed 110. Now I weigh 87. My bones are bulging out of my skin. I don't have time to eat. You know I actually want to graduate high school and go to college?
Me: I would know the feeling..
Kitty: Then why didn't you stay in?
I sighed. No one ever talked to me about why I dropped out.
Me: Well I have a daughter. I can't be that big of a multitasker. And I got to the point where a I really didn't give a fuck and b the only reason why I wanted to graduate was in had cheerleading scholarships. Then Danielle came... Hey this isn't my session it's yours.
Kitty: Yeah. I've just been depressed lately. I feel like I have to watch Two-Bit more closely since he cheated on me. With the wedding coming up. I feel pressured to look so fuckin skinny. Love sucks.
She threw a rock into the fire.
Me: You got that right. I've only been in love twice. I broke their hearts. Guys are so
fucking confusing! And if Two-Bit doesn't like the way you look fuck him.
She starred at me blankly. Her mouth wide open.
Kitty: How did you just... stop?
Me: Truth is I never stopped. I try but I can't stop. I didn't become bulimic for Soda. He
thought I looked sexy in his DX shirt or in a pair of ratty sweats. I wish I had a time
machine to just tell me I look beautiful enough. I lived my whole sophomore/ junior year fat.
Kitty you weigh 87 pounds that's not so bad! Heck I weigh even less! Kitty you're beautiful
just the way you are. Don't let an eating disorder stop you from living your life. I let it
rule mine and it's horrible.
Kitty: What don't you understand I'm as worse as you! No matter how picture perfect lives
might seem they are even more fucked up. It's just... UGH!
I took a deep breath as I let Kitty calm herself. I reached into my jacket pocket. I found 2
bottles of pills. Weight gain shit and prenatal shit. I popped 2 of each in my mouth. Kitty
sat there crying.
Kitty: I'm such a fuckin wimp!
She wiped her tears off.
Me: No you're not everyone has to cry.
Kitty: Coming from the girl who cried when she couldn't make a fire and flipped the shit when
I couldn't fix the car. AND you had a crowbar near my head when I couldn't fix the god damn
car.
Me: Hey I have my moments.
Kitty: More like you're a hormonal bitch. You're even worse then Blair.
Me: Is that an insult? If you want to see a hormonal bitch you will see one in 2 seconds when I get that crowbar out.
Kitty laughed.
Kitty: Everyone is excepting me to solve their problems. And I have my own. Two-Bit says
everything is okay between us but it's not. If everything was okay he wouldn't cheat on me. I
don't know if I have second thoughts or whatever.
Me: Hmmmm... Fuck him then we should get married instead. Screw Two-Bit.
Kitty laughed she came over.
Kitty: Okay. Whatever you say. But if we are married I get to be the baby daddy.
I gave her a playful shove. At least she's laughing instead of crying.
Kitty: Just tell me. Why did you become bulimic?
Me: My mom was a manipulative bitch. At 15 she forced me to do modeling. Good bye dark
highlights. She forced all of us to model. Well except Mark and Adam. I had to model normal
clothes, lingerie, and bikinis. At a Victoria's Secret catalog shoot. I was in nothing but a
push up bra and a thong. I had a D chest. Real boobs not the fake ones like all the models
had. I took a bottle of Diet Coke off the table. All the models were making fun of me calling
me fat and shit. Theye even were poking my stomach as if I was the Pillsbury Doughboy. They weighed like 80 pounds. I weighed 110. After that I just started being bulimic. And you can't
just wake up one day and stop. I try to hide that I'm over it because I'm pregnant. And it's
one of the ways I deal with stress. I just found out that the baby is Soda's not Sam's. I went
to the hospital last week and made Doctor Winston do the DNA test. It's Soda's.
Kitty: Well I'm going to become an aunt.
I wanted to bitch slap her. As if I'm happy that I'm pregnant by my ex! I went to the truck and grabbed some of my clothes, my makeup bag, and my hair stuff. I picked out blue and black polka dot pants, white tank top, and black slippers.
Me: How the hell did you sneak into my house with out getting caught? You know we gave guns? And you don't want to see me with one. Cuz I shot Adam in the leg by accident. And I shot Lexie in the foot.
Kitty: Oh it was quite easy. Your brunette sister was with Danielle and I just snuck around the back. I love your room though.
Me: Stalker much?
I grabbed a couple of ugly clothes. For pillows for me and Kitty. We laid down.
Kitty: Do you still love Soda?
Me: I loved him. I have strong feelings for him but I don't love him. I'm the one that broke up with him remember?
Kitty: Yeah... Jelly hates you because Soda left her for you.
Me: Good to know?
I reached into my pocket looking for my phone. No cell service.
Me: What happens if we die out here?
Kitty: Then I died with my wife.
I laughed.
Me: Good night wifey.